My Head Tells Me To Let It Go But My Heart Doesn’t Listen | BiographyFlash
You let me down. And as soon as I even thought about doing the same thing, you would come back, just to hurt me again.
Sometimes I really felt like a toy in the hands of a child. You took me and played nice.
And then suddenly, you threw me aside, like I was worthless.
I have always been cautious when it comes to love. I made sure to keep myself safe, and no one could get close to my heart.
But when I met you, I still can’t describe this feeling… I felt like I had never felt this before.
You brought down the walls around me.
I fell in love so quickly. I didn’t even realize what was happening.
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I felt safe in your arms, like nothing could hurt me, like you were here to stay. I was happy. I was comfortable.
But I shouldn’t have let my guard down so easily. It hurts so much now.
You’re not the man I thought you were. You’re just a spoiled brat who thinks he deserves everything.
You put me through so much pain, then you came back like nothing happened.
It was calm and peaceful for a while, then the storm and thunder struck again.
You never strayed too long – something drew you back to me.
Just like me I was attracted to you. I thought it was love.
You always said you could fix yourself. You had a lot of problems, and most of them were inside you.
You said you were going to change for me. That my love would change you. But it never happened and it never will happen. You got worse every time.
I loved you anyway. Everything that was good but also the bad.
No wonder I felt the way I did, we were completely obsessed with each other.
We had a passion that you rarely encounter. I miss kissing you. It was different from everything.
We kissed like it was the only thing keeping us alive.
But it wasn’t enough. It was never enough. I need everything. Your heart. Your body. Your soul. One thing is not enough.
I rationalized. I arranged everything in my head. I knew you weren’t good for me. You were literally destroying me. Inside and outside.
You took me for granted, disrespected me and next to you I often felt useless.
When you love someone, like you told me you loved me, you don’t do things like that.
You don’t come and go as you please. You stay no matter what. I’ve told you a million times.
My brain knows all this. My head has made peace with the fact that there will never be an “us” again.
But my heart… My broken heart still loves you with all its pieces. He just won’t let you go.